Plan B

I was feeling so low this morning. I was so pathetic, I was crying while watching "Strictly Ballroom"! How low is that? I don't know. I've just been feeling so lonely, so lost, confused, rejected, with no Plan B in sight.

It's been 7 weeks and I still haven't heard from that job I got interviewed for. I started feeling down when I asked myself what I was going to do if I do not get the job. I got depressed when I realized that there is no job for me out there if and when that happens! In desperation, I called Tita Reggie and blurted out, "Gusto ko nang umuwi sa Pilipinas!" But of course, I am not that serious. It would be, at most, a short term solution. Edge and I have weighed the pros and cons, and the scales are tipped heavily in Australia's favor. Tita Reggie said that the medicine for my ailment is TFC! Once I have it installed, I can see what's going on in the Philippines, and I'll never want to leave Australia again!

I've also been thinking, what if I'm in the wrong state? What if my luck lies in Melbourne? Or Queensland? Or Tasmania? (Haha! It gets so cold there!) But that would really be major!

Today, I helped out in Diego's class. In Sports! Of all subjects! They were practicing soccer skills. Diego's teacher took half of the class, I took another. She handled ball dribbling, I handled kicking into the goal. I knew a lot of the kids there because most of them had been in Diego's birthday party. I still knew most of their names so I was able to call them out. When Diego's teacher left to be with her group, I automatically went into "teacher mode". I demanded (firmly, yet kindly) that they form a straight line and keep quiet as I gave them instructions. I felt the familiar rush of being able to command the students to give you their attention and follow instructions. I had a great time! Time went by so quickly, both me and the kids were sorry that it had to end. Diego was smiling from ear to ear. I think he felt so proud that his mother was teaching in his class.

As Diego and I walked home this afternoon, I could feel that we were both feeling very good about ourselves. I came up with PLAN B!

I still want THAT job that I've been waiting for but if this is God's plan for me, I have rejected it many times, but I still keep getting calls to do casual teaching. Maybe God wants me to stay in teaching. So, I want to ask the school if I can volunteer regularly for Term 3 -- they can assign me anywhere, any grade, any subject, even for half days or whole days. In Term 4, they can call me for casual teaching. I am hesitant kasi to do casual teaching because I don't know how they do it here. But if I volunteer first, then I get the feel of how they do things here. Plus, there are no demands on me, because I'm just a volunteer, and a parent at that! I figure, it's a win-win situation for all of us. I hope it works out.

On Wednesday, I have a schedule to volunteer again, this time for Math. Edge is volunteering too, for sports in the afternoon. Diego should be very happy on that day! Hopefully, the principal notices that we are good teachers and who knows, he may hire us? Or, at the very least, when we apply to other schools, we can put in our resume that we have some teaching experience here, even if it's just volunteer work.

So now I'm feeling better, because I have a Plan B. Will keep you (my 2 faithful readers) posted about which plan gets implemented and how it's going.